Sadness

It's been ages since I last posted here. A lot of things have changed- some for good, some for bad and others of which I don't even know why they did. With every setting of the sun, I wished for a new day despite knowing that the appearance of a new beginning is just a few hours away. But there are moments in life, when you're surrounded by darkness despite all the illuminations around and sincerely hope that the melancholy will soon fade away just like the stars do at every dawn; alas! it seldom happens. Time ticks away on its course and every hour has a story about your despair to narrate.

Perhaps, what I always observed but failed to understand about life is its wavering attitude, its tendency to raise you up so high with beautiful moments that you begin to feel like the protagonist from Gulliver's travel and then suddenly jerk the cloud you're flying on so drastically that you end up smearing your face with all the world's crap. But then too, man yearns to live a pleasing, long and fuller life. Funnily though, it's man's unshakable trust in his destiny that he longs for an enviable life despite realizing its viciousness just like the starry eyed boy-next-door who fantasizes the bombshell babe despite all her tantrums and arrogance just so that his friends go berserk ogling at his booty!

I don't recommend you reading more of this post lest you might end up accusing me of confusion and incoherence about what is that really inspired me to write such a cynical piece. I'm speechless about my state of mind but He knows best. I'm wandering aimlessly in unknown terrains trying to search the definition of my existence, turning every pebble on my way to see if it has a clue to my answers and trying hard to listen to the many echoes of unspoken feelings resonating in my heart but in vain. I know of an old dervish poet called Rumi and he said, "Each moment contains a hundred message from God. To every cry of  'Oh God!', He answers a hundred times "I'm here!" How I wish I could hear Him say that to me, perhaps life would become a bit more bearable knowing that the One who blessed you with it is by your side now and forever.